Mamori まもり

Omamori 在日语是护身符，mamori 是守护。

守护不同保护，它是精神支柱。

它给的不是安全，是安全感；

它看不见，可是感受得到。

它未必时时刻刻在身边，可是已经在心间。

有守护者是幸运的；

是如影随形的影子，

是黑暗里的月光，

是冰冷的手中握着的热咖啡。

守护着人是幸福的；

拥有存在的价值，

学会在迷茫中清醒，

找到坚持的勇气。

Not Love Anymore

I love myself. I used to say this phrase once upon a time. Yes, once upon a time, until I can't remember when was the last time. This was a way I showed my confident, an expression of believing in myself. But now, what's up? I hate myself. Really. I've been lost and not trusting myself anymore for quite long period of time. Keep asking myself, what am I doing? Not because of I don't really know, in fact, I lost the direction. I can't see the target, aiming nothing. Instead of that, I should know what do I want; I have no answer. I hate myself can't complete a task as expected; hate myself lost my self-discipline; hate I'm always overestimate myself; hate I can't be a person I want to be. After all, I realized I do need someone else to be with me. I thought I'm independent, seems like I'm wrong. I'm now discomfort with people trusting me, knowing me as a strong and though person that can overcome any problem on my own. Deep in my heart, I'm saying, 'I'm not as good as you thought, man.' I may feel guilty with the trust, or disappoint your expectation, I'm not sure, but definitely not been encouraged. Sorry, I need understanding.  I try to be crazy. The craziness doesn't mean do something that not sensible. It is just something quite normal but never think it will be done by me. The crazy may make me feel alive, yet, surviving with problematic and struggling life that I bring for myself. Perhaps, the challenges make me feel more failure. Shouldn't I hit myself to the bottomless and awaiting of bouncing back?

偶尔的假假感性

渐渐的，愿意给人看到的是越来越表面的自己；

渐渐的，愿意让人了解的是越来越不明确的抒发。

越来越多的图片，越来越少的文字；

只为了留些想象空间，让别人自己看图说故事，

自己的故事也好，幻想也无所谓，精彩就好。

归根究底，渴望的是纯粹的知心；

当时的心情，当下的感动；

可以感同身受。

Tomodachi (ともだち)

朋友在心中的位置应有多重？ 

到了什么阶段才能列为朋友？

如果说，家人像空气，如影随形却感觉不到；

情人像阳光，给予温暖和光明；

那朋友就像水，不可缺少但容易被忽略。

一起吃喝玩乐，一个傻的，一个疯的； 对！那是朋友。

两肋插刀，赴汤蹈火；那是有义气的朋友。

通宵畅谈；听你哭诉；那是知心朋友。

可是，你却不会常常想起他们；

不会为他们牺牲，不会为他们花太多的心思。

只有伤心难过，无聊寂寞时，才会记得他们的存在。

Most of the time, when a person is facing a problem,

they have their own solution in their mind.

All they need is not a counselor, but a listener.

They are not looking for suggestion, but an agreement.

Friends, this is what I am here for.

到底要什么

很多人都只知道自己不要什么，却不清楚自己想要什么。一昧的拒绝才抱怨不曾拥有。不去尝试又如何深入了解，又如何知道什么是自己想要的。

生命的旅程就是一次又一次冒险；冒险就是边走边发掘新事物、新体会。 冒险的过程必定会跌倒受伤，会经历恐惧害怕、裹足不前。该继续，该放弃，该前进，该转弯；影响着下段路的每一步并没有对与错。只是最终会得到什么而让人犹豫不决。

怕受伤，怕冒险，只会让恐惧越发强大。踏出第一步就要有走下去的准备，除了前进，可以转弯甚至后退，就一定不能停下。停在半途，更难受更危险。

自然的声音

有时候，莫名其妙的喜欢听着不懂语言的歌曲，感受音乐表达的情绪。

有时候，很享受原住民的山歌和朗诵，想象着回到人类最原始的时候。

语言只为了更明确的表达，深透其中的意义与真实，还是要用心聆听。

被人们归类为原住民的他们，是那么的欣赏自己，坚持真实。

很多人都认为大自然的声音就是身在森林中的虫鸣鸟叫，潺潺流水和徐徐微风；忘记了人类也是大自然的一份子，也有自己原始的一面。摒弃迂腐，归类为文明，并非坏事；饮水忘了思源，却也忘了自己。

太多技巧、刻意矫正的声音显得做作。随心表达、简简单单还是最美的。

蒲公英

有人认为蒲公英很浪漫；随风飘荡，无拘无束。

有人认为蒲公英很无奈；看似自由，其实身不由己。

对我而言，它很自己；

任由风带走自己的一切，却也带不走那坚强的内心。

无论外表变成怎样，失去多少，最真的心依然还在。