If Tomorrow Never Come

Sometimes, I'll ask myself, if there is no tomorrow, what will I do today? Will I regret for something that not done?

Here, I've been three years. If everything going smoothly, if I only want to get a degree certificate, if I don't like study anymore, if I won't come back here next year.... What have I achieved over these year? I may not have good academic achievement, I may not expand my social network, I may not do any improvement apparently. But, I will say, all I've paid is worth for all I have now.

Sounds kinda early to do so called year review that I never do every year. Anyway, I keep reminding myself this year is the fifth year I away from home. What exactly a five year means? How an environment change me; how an obstacle change me. Though, is a special year for me. I met a different me. Sometimes, I think this is the worst of me. Sometimes, I feel disappointed of myself. It's not about any bad thing happens on me but about my reaction and strength of overcoming a problem.

I never know I can be so terrible. Whoever only know me this year, unfortunately, meet the worst of me. I thought I was prepared to present a better me. After all, just realized that confident overwhelmed me and my egoism tackle me. And I lost them totally.

Somehow, I try to assume won't be back, what will I do before I leave.

我是损友？

人家都说，真朋友就是，

在你无助时扶你一把；

在你失落时陪伴着你；

在你迷茫时引导着你。

他们不客气的命令你；

他们不保留的开你玩笑；

他们不犹豫地骂醒你。

也许，他们说的是忠言且逆耳；

也许，他们怕你受伤；

也许，他们担心你失去自我。

他们真的在乎你。

我在乎，我会担心，但我不会阻止，既是对大多数人而言是错的。

也许对别人而言是盲目，我会继续支持。

就算到最后受了伤，别人会说，忘记吧；我会希望，不要忘记。

别人会努力的疗伤，我会希望不要拒绝疤痕。

很多人都会说，记得忘记，以为忘记就可以放下；但，或好或坏都是回忆，只属于自己那独特的记忆。真正放得下是可以心无涟漪的回忆，并会心一笑，感谢那些点缀你的生命。

朋友，我不选择做一巴掌打醒你的真朋友，我只选择做接受你一切过错的损友。