What's on My Mind

There's something that I need to overcome. Over these days, I understand, bad luck come along with scare and fright; good luck come along with confident and courage. Gift is only given to whom ready to accept. I know, I know right. But this doesn't mean that I know how to overcome the obstacles. I don't know what should I do. People think I like to travel alone, I enjoy. But, mainly, I want to dumb myself in a scary and insecure condition; let myself facing the loneliness and fear. I found, I'm tough, in front of people; I never show my weakness to anyone; I never ask for help even I don't have a solution. This is dangerous, I know. What all these for? I try to find something that can stimulate me, inspire me to pass through. I will feel all my experiences and journeys will be wasted if I can't overcome this time. Keep reminding myself, what I'm here for, why I want to leave a lovely home. Others may have terrific target, may aim for greatness; but I only think of myself, I want to be perfect. I want to leave an overprotected life; but after all, I'm overprotected by myself. I need to free from my own cage, but what should I do.

You may think why I'm writing this kind of post recently. Not because these life's events only happen now, not because this is the only way I can express, not even I desperately need understanding. I always say to myself, I don't mind nobody can understand me; but I do mind I don't understand my friends who I care about. I do mind my friends never share their happiness and sadness with me. So now I decided, let who care about me to understand me. Because you deserve.

悬挂着的闪光

夜空中的星星，像悬挂在天边的灯火；

仿佛天边有另一个城市，在等着谁的归来。

星星，只不过是宇宙间的一团尘土；
如果对着星星许愿会实现
那天边的他方是否也在对着我们这尘土祈祷。

如果向划过天边的流星许愿可成真；
那我愿昙花一现，消逝在那瞬间。

如果我觉得这些宇宙的尘土很漂亮；
那边是否也在欣赏我这尘埃的美。

Mamori まもり

Omamori 在日语是护身符，mamori 是守护。

守护不同保护，它是精神支柱。

它给的不是安全，是安全感；

它看不见，可是感受得到。

它未必时时刻刻在身边，可是已经在心间。

有守护者是幸运的；

是如影随形的影子，

是黑暗里的月光，

是冰冷的手中握着的热咖啡。

守护着人是幸福的；

拥有存在的价值，

学会在迷茫中清醒，

找到坚持的勇气。